+and there's so much where we ain't been yet

Going heavy, myself, mornings spent independently working, assertiveness, so much love, easy flowing conversations, heartbreak for the right reasons, leading.

+when i close my eyes, i hope to find you, i hope to find you

Grown up decision-making, the goofy stage, a wonderful day in the kitchen, catching up with a wonderfully wonderful friend, rest days, no-bake cookies, no feeling of hierarchies, writing out my theories, comparing and contrasting.

+the days quickly pass he loves makin her laugh

Recreation days, volleyball, team, connection, way past forming and storming, nights spend baking, things just keep clicking and revealing.

"Her eyes are like the winter when she goes
holding secrets only winter knows.
Winters, winter knows, cause winter's seen the wolves in women's clothes"
-Fiction Family

+it's something that only God knows

Bettering, gardens, engaging conversations, notes from kansans, the post office, cucumbers with ranch, feta cheese, the skyline, compelling mottos and feeling at home.

+is my life about to change?

"I've been going down
Down into the river baby,
Listen to the sound
It's something only God knows,
You figure it out, I can't stay
Water's in the clouds
Is my life about to change?"
-Local Natives

Hard and heavy days, real scenarios, good lettuce, roma tomatoes, one dollar scoop nights, good veggie burgers, honesty.

+this is really happening - i've seen too much, i haven't seen enough

The beauty of a restful Sunday morning, skype skype skype, the holladay's new puppy, the smell of fresh cut grass, strong and well-made coffee to be had slowly, a cooler day, feeling energized, multiple workouts, labels, a gift of starbucks from a sweet new friend.

+here i'm allowed anything all of the time

Routines and the benefit of them, beautiful campus facilities, music that drives me, frozen yogurt in the dining hall, power napping, choosing wisely, fabric for my office, patience and promise, reminders of focusing on God, seeking wise counsel.

+the sweet symphony that's life

Program connections, retreats, bunk beds, re-learning mafia, circle time and time to ask the real things, deeper talks, realizations, conversations, flexibility, being myself and putting it out there, sweet connections in eye glances.

+do you know what true romance is? and could you show me now?

Setting up my very own office, more food than could possibly ever be eaten, feasts, seasonal fruits, emphasis on the local at the big-state, stringed instruments, a love for the extraordinary, organizational needs, the way the red rooftops reflect as the sun sets.

+just what would be the chances I could tell you now

Letters and remembrance, cinnamon stick smell, wheat state, the forming, the fresh starts but old baggage, crazy realizations, new life.

+like a bird in a cage i broke in and demanded that somebody free it

"If you're loved by someone you're never rejected - decide what to be and go be it." -The Avett Brothers

The continued wanderings, staff gatherings, beginning connections, the color green, sweet flow-y dresses, the postal service, snail mail x one-thousand, feeling simultaneously young and old, beautiful facilities, long walks, deeply vested relationships.

+melting flakes of snow will catch you when you fall

Adventures with brand new friends, sleeping in, uncharted time, garmins, sunsets over the hill, realizing how close it is to get to Nebraska and various other states that seem so foreign, citrus drinks.

+no longer do we wonder if we're together, we're way passed that

Endless coffee & endless nice people, canvassing, the east/west battle, sister-talks, becoming acquainted, impromtu hang outs and soft ball game watching, fitting and feeling right, perfect lighting / fan blowing / comfy bed to fall asleep soundly in.

+give my body back to the earth and not complain

Crossing over state borders, apples & coffee, feeling like a weight had been lifted, farmland, fields, lower temperatures, 20 minutes to move, confidence in forward motion, big fluffy pizza, shelves, patience, saying what I wanted to say.

+i want to have friends who love me for the man i've become not the man that i was

Packed cars, good music mixes, good friends all gathered in one place, support and love and encouragement, notes and thoughtfulness, beginning, tears of every emotion known to man (it seems), watching the odometer climb and climb and climb, big beds at the end of the road.

+cause they just wanna leave; i wish that i could stay

Caedmon's Call:

But if I must go,
Things, I trust, will be better off without me.
But I don't want to know.
Life is better off a mystery.

So keep'em coming, these lines on the road.
And keep me responsible, be it a light or heavy load.
And keep me guessing with these blessings in disguise.
And I'll walk with grace, my feet, and faith my eyes.

Hometown weather is on TV.
I imagine the lives of the people living there,
and I'm curious if they imagine me.
Cause they just wanna leave; I wish that I could stay.

...and I'll walk with grace, my feet, and faith my eyes.

+just give me a try

I love details like this.... ones that find in the pockets of my coat:

+first tell me which path you will choose

Manuals & coffee, finding deals left and right, witty-ness all day long, mind-boggling movies, tasty fresh ingredients, long nights of conversing and discovery.

+i love it all, i want you back

Goldfish, backseat texting, homemade gardens, big creeks, rope swings, flat rocks to skip, laughing real genuine laughs, engaging personalities, appetizer feasts, language hurdles, not knowing what time it is.

+i'll rest my eyes to the rivers in the sea

Waking up at the Tsays, granola, characters, responsibilities, hot sun, too many endorphins, too much to eat, greek food, basil in anything, moon risings, observations, long walks and long talks, trails, local natives, jamming out in my car, good smelling air fresheners, typings.