+you're only glad its dark, cause you might see the master's hand

Overcoming preconceived notions, the simplicity of volunteerism, the heart and soul of genuine conviction in action, acceptance, hard work, friends in my apartment and fun nights out unexpectedly, sombreros, great bands, matching phones, hugs, appreciation, walking home in the middle of the night holding hands.

+i'm just shaking it off

A promise: I will move my details from my journal to this site whenever time allows.

"I want to tell you that I'm alright.
I might slow down or sigh sometimes.
I'm just shaking it off.
I'm just telling myself not to let go.
Not to let go."
  -John Nolan

+where the thistles eat the thorns

Attempting the impossible, bearing, the nature of tongue-in-cheek, frustrations aired, sighing, musical healing, finding out more facts and regaining hopefulness, opportunities in email form, amazing women who i work with.

+i can feel the world circling

Not forgetting how powerful nature can be, swallowing, updates, helplessness and needing others, following through on being my own person with my own ideas, conviction, the full range of emotions.

+be the light in my lantern tonight

Waking up to thunderstorms and realizing again the power of Creation and the ability it has to affect our lives, having an adventure buddy of a boyfriend, loving the silence and knowing I am here to help, learning to love no-electricity, cleansing.

+who do you circle round you?

Walking in the rain and feeling free, beautifully slow-paced-coffee-shop-undistracted mornings, a handmade crepe, unlimited dark-brewed coffee, hearing about another soul and being relieved that someone who deserves goodness is living in it, new lights and new space, umbrellas chacos and raincoats, grocery shopping, sleeping, feeling helpful, genuine feelings, nights out and goofy shops, praying as much as I know how.

+i find my mine is settlin' down

Lots of time to be, smiling and understanding each other, preparing for the impending rain, understanding our limits, labels, a whole night of simple fantastic-ness, dear friendships, being taken care of.

+time, love, time, love

Empowering conversations, support encouragement, kicking back for a lunch out, friends, great eye contact, cancellations, support for others, impressed with the scholarship of my friends, slow walks, dinners together, library movies, cancellations that free up my mind, falling asleep early and learning more about the affect of food on my body.

+close my eyes and keep on swimming

Talking to mom on the walk to work, naps naps naps, lazy days that lead into lazy nights

+if the best is really for the best

A morning of deep thankfulness that I have not felt anything like before, hugs and hugs and more hugs, replaying it over again, soccer games, Melissa Kooy, new information, more working out tandem, explorations, night-time hugs at the end of a crazy day for him.

+guess i'm gonna have to guess again

Quickness, leaving early, nights of recognition that help let people know they are loved, smiling without stopping, changing up the plans for once, sharing workouts with a friend.

+sometimes at night comes the singin

Reading impressive writing, fresh cut veggies and fruits, pots of soup for the week, church and running into our friends and really realizing what is important in life, home cooked-by-friends-late-lunches.

+love, you hard when it rains. time, no it ain't all aside

Waking up to cheering, finding ways around the crowds, crazily random compliments from strangers, dark mornings full of thunder and downpours, sharin a frothy monkey table even if it's not big enough just for extra hang-out time, wonderful comics, bowties, acting like we know what a monsoon is, pride in my friends, using afternoons for food prep, movies, the library, errands, goofy hawaiian times.

+i fell i love with your sound, oh i love to sing along with you

 Coming to a close, sighs of relief, color, lyrics, long walks, almonds, perfect little dinners, deals, awesome moods, made up bowling names, enjoying all the little moments, air conditioning, pdh!, the future lookin' bright, predicted night storms, strengthening.

+my friend the giant and traveling sails

Smiles, green smoothies, being taken out to lunch and not being able to stop feeling extreme gratitude, bloosoms raining, excitement, long car rides that calm me down, soccer games, nerdy reading late night with wine, bedtimes, late night calls after the studio.

"It takes a whole campus of whole persons to develop whole students."

+blue waters, blue eyes color me

Power days, long walks, a constant plodding, outside brief catchups cause it's all we have, the best hugs ever made, keeping true to April busyness, productivity and being challenged, organizing, yogurt with apples, looking forward to rest days, yummy dinners out for celebrations, clean apartment to come home to, thoughtfulness and phone calls when i'm half asleep.

+he prayed for the moon to give him light

Another round of earliness, fluffy fresh omlettes for breakfast, celebrations and accomplishments, support, strangest of dreams, feeding the ducks, distancing, rearranging, riding the gas light for miles and miles and miles, as usual my chacos and their lovely adjustable straps, snickers ice cream while finally catching up, little fresh dinners with friends' family and all the entertainment that follows, actually keeping up with a tv show, genuine time.

+i'm falling into memories of you and things we used to do

Contant energy and soreness, confidence boosting, carving out, better moods, old thoughts, staying collected, new albums, clif bars, dark brown, great harmonies, sweet friendships, dates to mark, standing still, goofy dancing, hot to cold, humming even later.

+hurry now, lay me down, and let these waters flow

Catching up via snail mail, big pots of coffee for a Sunday morning of focus, hard workouts that make me feel accomplished, waiting on dinnertime, grocery lists, hoping the world (not my world) slows down one day, long afternoons at the park, catching up on journaling, sunkissed shoulders, knees, and nose, giggling.

"I could tell you the wildest of tales, my friend the giant and traveling sails.
Tell you all the times that I failed, the years all behind me, the stories exhaled.
And I'm drying out, crying out, this isn't how I go." -yellowcard

+i don't want to call you but you're all i have to turn to

Drizzling mornings that cool everything down, funny pollen patterns on my car, big blueberry muffins and coffee with saucers, every nook and crannie, alone time, pick-up ultimate frisbee, holding my own, loving the feeling of running in a cool breeze, watching soccer games and trying to understand the rules (still), sweet cece's with a crammed-full car, needing a jacket again.