+my world crumbles when you're not near

Staying busy and feeling productive, alligators, when your favorite things are the cheapest things, crystal light in a wine glass, old staff together again, analyzing movies, how the brain tackles hurdles while you aren't thinking about them, good posture, homemade soup late at night, coziness and feeling settled.

+don't let me into this year with an empty heart

Being able to walk to work, easier than we originally thought, sudden snow storms, beautiful coverings, boots to wade through the slushy ice, late night grocery trip runs, risks, laughing and feeling free.

+we love to talk on things we don't know about

Curls, gloves, hangman, fresh air, long naps, good smelling apartments, cheering, genuine laughs, remembering this moment for a later day, where i want to be, good people, not rushing, empty roads, great big conversations that i want to have.

+give the love you find until it's gone

Baking, big breakfasts, losing, libraries, new business ideas, movie after movie, people enjoying my baking, old school board games, best friends, classy little dinners, musicals I should have watched ages ago, relaxation.

"I wanna fit in to the perfect space, feel natural and safe in a volatile place." -Avett Brothers

+silhouettes in a window frame

How your hair falls after you've had it trimmed, appreciating who you are, birthday celebrations, comfy sweaters, international postage stamps, boca burgers, rain drops, sour patch kids, three-pointers still, foosball championships, laughing hard, unplanned evenings, cupcake preparations, being crafty, cold days.

+i don't have any questions, i don't think it's gonna rain

How slow time has become, movie analyses, lunch talks, ziploc popcorn bags, monsters, feeling up to that level, getting stronger, enjoying the rain, hot soup after yoga, cuddling when there's a storm outside, fresh, chick-flicks, lots of love.

+i've been wrong but it's alright

Learning to like homemade coffee more than cafe-bought, energy, passive motivation, finding new and creative blogs, core, perfecting a recipe you've been working on, ditching the car, straws, popcorn, how we both love wandering so much, the clairty art-making can bring, thinking-movies.

"Long ways away but you're never alone /Look at the sky over our home/ I'll be around a few more miles to go..."

+we expected something, something better than before

Good music stuck in your head all day, lots of focus and feeling healthy, little visits to and from, how the sun can heal things, the time for getting better, follow-through, safe roads, how meals feel like home, rosy cheeks because of cool fresh air, intentionality, mandolins, the national.

+i'm so sorry for everything

Seeing a dear friend again, a huge cup o' coffee for morning traffic, caution, sunshine, fullness, getting the bigger picture, kid-meals, doors closing, raspberries, having an unwavering quality, not turning away, long discussions just like before, 1/4 of a cup, being able.

"Baby, we'll be fine
All we gotta do is be brave and be kind
I put on an argyle sweater and put on a smile
I don't know how to do this
I'm so sorry for everything."

+there's no place to hide but i don't think i'm scared

 

Waking up to old memories, making and finishing a list, so much coffee, neighbors, how the sun melts away worries, squeaky wheels, snow ball fighting, syd, grass for hair, carrot stick noses, being with someone who keeps me smiling, a full stomach, ongoing shows, not needing the heater, understanding from a dear friend, fuzzy socks.

+you were right about the end

Chocolate chip pancakes, feeling like it's a ghost town, feeling like the world is closed for the day, letting the weather control our actions (for once), the coziest fort ever made, harry potter, lengthy letters, bubble baths, walking with the camera, little kids especially in snow outfits, chocolate, fighting with myself, becoming wiser, feeling protected.

+walk away now and you're gonna start a war

Being proven wrong, watching the snow come down in waves, watching Belmont turn white, preparations and staying warm, the new yorker, hearty lunches, snow angels, snow fights, free hot apple cider, old favorites, sweet 80's romances, a classic, good emails from grad schools.

+do you really think you can just put it in a safe behind a painting, lock it up, and leave?

New album, how the temperature can drop in a few short hours, projects that keep me busy and interested, organization of little things, deep reflection, another go at it, making plans and lists, time spent doing and teaching photography, explanations, spontaneous ice cream adventures, coupons, made up mandolin songs, a good backrub after a week of hard workouts, new ways of being frugal, preparations.

"Looking for somewhere to stand and stay, I leaned on the wall and the wall leaned away." -The National

+and today was supposed to be not just another day

Cheerios, valuable work, endless leftovers, freshly made bread, how the sun reflects when it is at such a low angle, cool breezes, squeezing things in, getting better at checking voice mail, understanding the direction, bare trees, knowing that regrowth is about to begin, constants, feeling inventive, looking forward to it again, newness again, visits, addresses, secret doors, new boxes, a new resolve

+so let's get out of here, past the atmosphere

Breakfast creations, time to reflect, new treadmills, jogging again, small steps towards stability, the squishy mats in the beaman, staying warm in the cold, understanding acts of humility, surprise sightings, taking a nap midday, bowl of cereal dinners, a packed student section, unison, who I actually have always wanted to be with, flow, three-points, just being with, good time spent.

+you told me i'm golden

The turning of weather, endurance building, realizing needs, wanderings, leftovers having dinner made for me, new music, pop corn from the stovetop, sweatshirts and blankets, closing another day.

+livin' inbetween sunset and sunrise

Fun interactions early in the morning, that cup, simple toast, filtering, cheap produce, cooking with company, making a recipe that smells like home, sunday afternoon restfulness, having the time to paint my nails, working through it, feeling importance, the other side, editing, just sitting, reading, leaving things scattered because something else is too important, heavy blankets that always do the trick.

+she'd stay that way if it was up to me

The way a good night of sleep feels, Saturday morning cleaning that reminds me of being home, the ingeniousness of clorox wipes, smiling even when you're alone, long walks on breezy days with good friends, simple relaxation, more walks, curled hair, using the resources at hand, the power of wind, a hug for every three-pointer, being frugal, making dinner that is tastier than any meal out, celebrating birthdays, bowling adventures, my iu hoodie's warmth.

+something in my heart will not give up on you

The idea of secret hideaways, shared, calm about the big things, ability to be consistent, running into people who have changed me, well-written lyrics, reaching the end of books, a new recipe, hearing stories, analyzing life in the only way we know how, good situations, peacefulness, the chance to discuss, frustration turning into relief and deeper love.

+we're moving forward but holding ourselves back

Cooking up a breakfast as the sun rises, vibrancy, extra room, new projects, the freedom to be creative, fireplaces, carrots, routine setting in, expectant about a meeting, at ease and confident, excited about the opportunity, simple but tasty dinners, arriving early, the new yorker mixed with npr, stillness, to the game solo, yoga routines in my living room, feeling compassion and the ability to dwell in silence.