+what we lost means nothing, but the memories wll stay

Loud music, packing it up, long breakfasts with Kindall, funny little presents, feeling comfortable, feeling like time is simply...strange and new, boxes upon boxes, nooks crannies and then more nooks, labels, time well spent, walks around the block.

+the current just sang, the song was so soothing

Big and wonderful breakfasts, traveling days and the massive volumes of reading that is involved in them, cute airplane drink cups, being inspired by a novel, good music, water a plenty, warm spaces, driving my car again, comforting to be back again, hanging out with people for the last time, strobe lights, preparations to do so much.

+these four walls crashing in won't stop me now

Divine breakfasts, spinach, fuel, more slow paced, finding the gifts that fit the people, pool-sitting, learning the art of tuning in and out, the smell of freshly cut grass, boat rides, couch sleeping.

+it's easy to defend the logic of a friend

Good soreness, water bottles that remind me of home, gorgeous landscapes that show intentionality in planning, hibiscus, fruit juice, sunglasses, standing up for myself/being assertive, soccer games and the spirit that soccer brings, excitement about future friends' weddings, connection points, breathing.

+keep taking it easy

Sweet comments, winking, catching someone's eye, politeness, serving one another, searching for perfect gifts, prose, finding the beauty in the ugly, mint chocolate chip ice cream, hot tea, darting, elegance, noted for elegance, posture, sweet in-depth conversations, a comforting, reassuring voice on the phone, listening to my body.

+we'll be rubbing shoulders once again in the sun

Sneaking it in, energized steps, packing snacks, fresh veggies and fruit, trying, day dreams that make me smile, planning the whirlwind ahead, harry potter everything, pumpkin juice, chocolate frogs, riding a broomstick, eating well, long walks, good talks over hundreds of miles.

+add up all the years that you've been gone

Muppets-everything about them, eating pizza at pizza planet and falling in love with Toy Story all over again, the way memories can tell an entirely different story, shows and fun and learning how to thrive a bit.

+just what would be the chances, that i could show you how?

Kids who love snow white and t-rex playing together, keeping it up, flattering compliments, the amount of patience you can find, enjoying it all and feeling new perspectives coming on, appreciating the fanciness of everything, away from it all.

+eight days a week

 Good music playing and trying to bring it together, the Beatles, workouts in hotel rooms, beautiful places, relatives reunited, the customer service through the roof and back.

+you've got a phone, keep me in mind, just give me a try

Gifts that have so much meaning there's no way to say thank you, compliments and fun photography, random errands for work, being free from the 'extras', scarves in the summer time, again with the words thing (constant), being serenaded on the cell phone to stay awake on the drive home, packed and ready to go.

+you're the one thing in this world i don't want to miss

Being a presenter to a gracious crowd, wearing heels for a day and feeling confident, girls night and the mexican government supervision, dancing to bad music, crouching around my last little table, snorton slumber parties and wishing these days could last forever.

+til then walk away, walk away

The well-timed and well-spoken use of words and the power and beauty they offer, the inspiration and the promise they can provide, and just appreciating the people in the world who have command over language, finishing early, library holds that are ready, text messages reminding me that I'm loved, chapstick.

+oh oh oh it's always a surprise

Re-do but so much better this round, feeling the effects, squeezing in time like we're so good at doing, the care and concern from the guy down the road...20 minutes away, another little transition, furniture makes a difference, stuck in the proverbial hard place and the rock.

+a good woman will pick you apart

Office days, being myself, sleek, having a buddy, missing snorton even when we're in the same city, caught in the midst, clocks feeling like they're ticking faster than normal, reaching out towards the next day.

+and i'm balancing history books up on my head

Back in town and hanging with a Golden Retriever, confusing dogs with living room workouts, dogs and their ability to calm and heal, feta and basil concoctions, finally having the time, Bible hunting, fancy dinner at J's knowing all the waitresses, manuals, chewing gum, driving therapy, holidays.

+shout

Sweet mornings of coffee and breakfast, music and conversations, learning all the deeper, not thinking about the busyness, dressing up and feeling elegant, pieces reused, being those girls and Alicia as my date, a beautiful wedding and so many wonderful people in the same place together, dancing for hours, best table, off with the shoes!, sparklers, blanket-talk.

+if you walk away, i'll walk away

SHK breakfasts that make me feel oddly like a part of the ya-yas, oh sweet constructive breakdowns, hunger and response, packed bags and hot sun, letting him drive all the way, his listening ears, eating dinner in Birmingham and meeting up with sweet friends who calm all the nerves in my body, the old city centre, laughing about everything, appreciative for the time spent and the love shared and created, make-shift.

+just stay in when it's lookin' this way

Our "day," the sweetness of knowing each other well for "years", feeling a sense of overwhelming accomplishment and excitement, busyness full of helpfulness, learning all the newness, seeing things come together, learning about the balances of things that formerly felt understandable, mistaken and humble, impromptu and calm, dinners out and unwinding with understanding, getting home after fifteen hours, coming back to a sweet house guest.

+warmer than warm yeah

Calming winds before what you know to be craziness, enjoying the talks again, finding the hopes of rhythm again, sweet comments, loving simplicity, working late, building up.

+i'm retiring from that fight

Getting enough sleep, full length windows, walking still, running into people i want to run into, hugging a dog goodbye before I go to work, oats&berries, happy evening plans to look forward to, gaining confidence in over the phone communications, skirts, bombs, waiting, knowing so many, eoy's and landmines of information, errands and the fun change in routine they bring, closer than ever.

"This is the darkest day I've seen / I can't find an opening / I've never felt this rage in me / I've never known this anger / I'm feeling like a curse / I feel like I'm getting worse / I'm bored with war and songs / I've been bitter far too long / Come on prove me wrong / and tell me I'm not longer / and tell me I'm not crazy / Well maybe just a little bit / Maybe just a little bit crazy / But mostly prove me wrong / They're up to something in my head / I can hear them taunting me / Thanks for nothing imagined friends / I can hear you laughing. / I  feel like a hearse / Like I'm carrying dead / I'm tired of being right / I'm retiring from that fight / hey come on prove me wrong." -Fiction Family